It’s not what you are that’s holding you back. It’s what you think you are not ~ Dennis Waitley
People with low self-esteem feel insecure, and it is disgustingly horrible. Having a low self-esteem before starting my first year in college is the toughest obstacle in the world. Due to my brain constantly saying “you can’t do this!” or “why do you even try?” every 10 seconds it is really hard when trying to prepare for a huge part of my life.
Being a starting artist / photographer I have received a growing amount of criticism as I develop as a creator, and that doesn’t help my self-esteem nor my self-respect. As I live my dream jobs and work hard to produce content for the world I know my own style will not suit other people, and that’s perfectly okay! My style is my style, and it’s a unique thing. Although, because I get many people sending me hate and telling me I’m doing it wrong I feel as though my style isn’t acceptable and I should follow a more common and famous way to produce content, and this really affects my self-esteem and also has a huge impact on my self-respect. Criticism leads to lack of confidence, lack of confidence leads to overthinking, overthinking leads to lack of self-respect, lack of self-respect leads to depression, and it’s a dangerous thing.
Having a lack of confidence this early on in life is worrying for me. It’s a constant battle of “Don’t panic it will be okay” then “you shouldn’t do that you’ll be criticised and no one else is doing it”. Confidence is a hard skill to master no matter what age or what you’re doing.
In my journey of depression, self-esteem and self-respect is already challenging. At points it makes you wonder if you’re truly worthy of happiness and confidence whilst dealing with other issues around you. Feeling as though you need the right to be happy, accepted and that you belong in society should be a natural thing for everyone in the world, yet some people disagree.
Boosting your self-esteem back up again can be easy or hard for most people, the way I did it was focus on what I’m good at and present it to the world and understand that people may not like it. When I make a risky decision and I get more love than hate it’s a huge self-esteem boost and that’s what I look forward to, to boost my self-esteem and self-respect back up.